the track
my life is full of joys and success and i am hyper aware of just how much i am blessed deep down in my core i am truly grateful but here on the sun-kissed surface of my soul i am dispirited, distressed by every traumatic event by next month's unpaid rent, by every abuse, by every betrayal, by every injustice, by every bend in the trail that was almost a break we're told that depression is a chemical imbalance a physiological malfunction but the truth is that depression is a psychological symptom, not a physical cause perhaps it's "pessimism writ large", or else just "optimism overwritten" i've recently learned how my years of ptsd and burnout are doing the same sort of long-term damage to my prefrontal cortex as psychiatric medication only without the benefits that my personality has been gradually decomposing into a downward spiral stairway through the gates of hell and as i circle around and around i see every interaction's intention as its da