headache

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pounding slashing needling in
invading every intimate nodule surrounding my brain
not the deep insides though
so i can put on the appearance of a functioning human being
just the outsides
in that safe space between scalp and skull
that's where it's hiding
incessantly distracting
squeezing my eyeballs from behind
so that pushing them in brings painful, tearful relief
while the aggressor slips and slides away,
round to the sides that human hands aren't made to hold

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